Birthday girl here

I try every single day to convience someone that i can do what they have always dreamed of doing. And i know the texts that im gonna get from this and ill take it for what it is at this point. is there something out there for me to have ti beg this hard for anyone like am i that ugly are my revirws that bad what is it that i cant just do whst i have to do to make some $$ i dont get it. maybe someone could help me with this because i cant seem to find an answer. im here guys 100% real and sad.